„In Denmark the foetuses are screened for chromosomic variations in week 12 of the pregnancy and if the foetus does have one you can do an abortion up to week 22.
I couldn’t get myself to do it. Surely, Down’s syndrome does mean that Hannah is going to be handicapped, but otherwise she was completely fine. Every time I got scanned she was lying there peacefully and safe and sound right underneath my heart. I am an over-thinker, so the diagnosis made me think really hard about living your best life. What do you need to do so? Do I really believe that this is doable in the world we are living in?
If I could ask her, would she want to be born? Would anyone want to be be born? And how old will she be, when I eventually die?
My pregnancy went by while I was reading about Down’s syndrome and life ethics. No time left for crocheting or what else one comes up with while looking forward to meeting  your baby.
I was really nervous: Will I love her? Will I think, she’s beautiful? What if something was overseen in the scans that will impact her health?
How much I longed for not-knowing the diagnosis in advance, so I would have enjoyed my pregnancy and Hannah’s shark impersonations in my belly.
But who knows, maybe every thing happened for a reason. Luckily everything went right, when she was born and I fell in love with her immediately. I have never experienced this kind of love before. Actually I start shivering by the thought that I could have chosen to end her life out of fear.
Of course it’s hard to be a single-mom to a two year old child during a pandemic, but when she’s looking at me and starts to smile, I just know that she’s the joy of my life and that she loves to be alive.“
2% that Hannah will be born with Down syndrome and
only 2% are born after that diagnose.